Woman's Waterloo

                                                                   A Woman's Waterloo
                   A woman who is a dreamer of a Knight in Shining Armor style, Romeo or a hero of their lives usually fall into a trap of fantasizing and dreaming things that are unreal. Especially when women feel that they are alone and lonely and no one takes care of them. To tell you guys I met already this kind of description I think because with him in my life I feel so safe and secure and I make myself more beautiful and he makes me afraid to get fat. I wanted to stay with him forever but as time goes by the pictures in my mind seems to fade. I even think that he is the last man standing because everyday there are men who are transforming and became women and I usually doesn't have the confidence to find real men nowadays. There are some men out there but I simply don't like them. I think it should be a secret but woman's things like "I wanna have sex" is so brutal to talk about and I think it is so unusual for a Christian like me and to tell you guys if you see me in person you won't really believe that it is me. Honestly, I am a dreamer kind of girl. I maybe don't know how to perfectly act and react but I know how to express how I feel. I get sad sometimes knowing that until now I remain a single. Just like what I usually confessed that I want somebody where I can cry on his shoulder and someone who can protect me but I think it is just so elusive and I don't know why. There is an instance in my life where I think I have a serendipity type but it is so embarrassing because that guy is a budol-budol gang and it is so tragic thing. I am sad now and the pain is killing me inside but I have to stay strong. Women are like this, even though there are feelings deep inside their hearts that are worth the quit but still they have to stay strong for their family.

Expressions

                     Sometimes life makes us uncomfortable and seems like you have to move one step higher and when you can't make it because of lack of faith in yourself, it is very relaxing to listen to this song and to meditate the Word of God which states that "We are not given the spirit of timidity but of Power, of love and of a sound mind. Maybe I don't have the power to stay strong as what I would like to appear but I can appeal God to sustain me daily through His Amazing Grace. I have an uneasy status of my heart. I don't feel confident today, what I like to do is to hibernate in my home. 

                       Grabe ang simple lang naman ng gusto ko eh hindi pa ma-gets. Andiyan ka lang, okay na ako. 

Project Excite Batch 41 (M.M.F.)

                   

            Usually everyday, I started a day thinking of what to do and what else to do and as a matter of fact I have been trying all the best outlet of my abilities that I still need to discover and finally the day had come for me to learn how to create my own blog having my own taste. First, you might think that I am very self-centered and yes maybe partially self-centered. But once in my life I dreamed of becoming a writer and could be able to write a novel. I was able to write the introduction of it but accidentally I deleted it for some serious reasons. Maybe now I still have reasons to pursues my dreams. Project EXCITE opens the way to make it happen and one day I will give back to them what they had shared on me. All their times and patience spent for me to learn this new technology-based media. Just wanting to share a part of me, I had written short essays about God and had been reading a lot of Christian books for me to learn more about God. The more that I searched on it the more that I am hungry for it. If I am not a bread winner in the family, I could have become a full pledge minister in the church because this is really what I wanted to do. At some point, as part of being a woman, I think you knew what I mean, some agendas like love life. By the way, no need to mention about it because in reality that had always been highlighted. Sometimes, I regret what I did but what can I do when the damage had been done. I think, the kind of book or blog that I wanted to create is more on of a magazine type because I wanted to talk about anything under the sun. It depends on what topic I am more concerned of. I like issues about science, politics, religion, health etc., obviously since it is a part of our daily living. I cannot pinpoint on what would be the main topic or issues that I wanted to feature on my blog since we constantly change daily. 

             Sorry, I gone far for my introduction, now take a look of my daily routine at EXCITE seminar;

I had been chosen as the delegate for the EXCITE seminar held at University of Rizal System, Morong, Rizal. It started last September 3, 2012 and it will last tomorrow, September 7, 2012. During the first three days of the seminar, the topics taught are all about MS Excel and it is really fun because I learned something new apart from being well-oriented of it in doing the grades of my students. I did examples of payrolls, Employment records, Canteen Reports, creating graphs and of course creating tables for grades and different functions and shortcut operation to become efficient in making and doing reports. As of today, again I have been fed a new level of information and for me as we were moving to the so-called digital, it is the most important part of our professional life since it gave us the opportunity to bring to the open our precious thoughts and suggestions about anything under the sun. The group activity given is very good because it promotes maximum participation and I think I must consider copying that strategy for my students in order for them to become sociable individuals. Realizing that tomorrow we will be taught the complex part of this topic, I would highly commend this project because it empowers teachers and educators to be a channel of improvement and competitiveness to their students. Being able to create a blog is already a blessing because it will give you a way to improve your skills in writing and the confidence to share your talents and wisdom to other people. 

THE END 

Thank you so much,

BY: "Blogger"

     

The quick brown fox jumps over the lazy dog..

          I think, I am the dumbest person in the world before because I don't know how to relate myself with others but the moment that I learned that I just have to let go of the past pains and forgive people, I started to appreciate life little by little. Sometimes I still have the tendency to resist others in my life but slowly I longed for friendship and therefore develops it. Life is not self made but it is a process. You cannot define life just in the present or thinking about the future but instead it is the entire life that you have to pass through. Honestly, it is a difficult process because no one can understand and no one can define except you. If you have a blank sheet of drawing sketch or a canvass, start to fill it out with who you are and who you wanna be and to tell you it is hard, except that you have a certain point of comparison and a reference point.

  

Maricel's blog

          There are many myths about me but in the end nothing is really extraordinary because everything about me is just ordinary. I think I appear to be very ambitious and yes I am ambitious but my extraordinary ambition is to prove that there is God and that heaven is real and I will just stop believing in it until I am already in heaven. If I will just state all of my past testimonies it may sound boring just like playing one music over and over again but looking unto Jesus as my savior gives me confidence that I will be saved. Very Boring because the features is all about me but it will fun if it is with the one I love but that is very case to case basis only. Chasing in the wind, wrapping the sands in your hands and holding the waters is very impossible but with God everything is possible. Actually, life started by faith and it will end up by faith alone because I have never seen a person born with clothes already wrapped around his/her body. It is very easy to talk and talk but what really matters is that what would happen next. So what now...? The world is almost falling and none can handle its cost except the one who knows what he/she is talking and doing.
      
          I would love to learn more about God but not in the context of mere heresy but through my experiences, so much have been said than done and much of it had been exploited by human interest. It became more of a byword and loses its value only because of the type of the bearer of the word who seemed so untrustworthy that the words he/she delivers is unbelievable and only sounds like a fairy tale. Awhile ago I would love to honor of course the one I know is senior than me but of course it is not that bad because I knew that she is professional but she is also professional in another sense. I often heard that this world is clouded with wolves and beasts ready to devour the sheep because there is no shepherd yet but by the power of the Holy Spirit sent by the Lord Jesus we can endure these things because greater is He that is in me than He that is in the world. Most of the time the reason why Satan is stealing the time spent for meditating because Satan doesn't want the people of God realize how powerful they are and that they had commissioned in a greater purpose. Satan is keeping people busy so that they don't have time to evaluate the kind of life they have. I can't believe my mom would rather attend her plants instead of her grandchildren because she is a lover of plants. Being exploited and being expose had negative and positive fruit but it depends upon on how to handle the situation. I just realized how I slumber a little longer and that I merely have a small pace at a time but that is better rather than risky and abrupt. In the long run, God alone can determine what kind of road am I taking. I just love this moment to exercise my brain because I felt that I fell asleep a little while and I loosen up my walls. Anyway thank you Lord because of the firewall He gave to me. This firewall isn't about being fake for myself but it is for self-awareness because I had so many wasted moments. I had many idle moments and those are unfruitful times. It makes my brain rusty but I still have it, I just need to sharpen it now. I just missed the moments that I could be able to write the first novel and that is ambitious one. I just tried. Life is about expression of your soul without fear and regret. I love conquering and I love exploring and I love learning but and this is a big BUT, I am lazy most of the time and one of my not so good attitude is being intimidated when I am in front of great people. Those people I think is big. I overcome that before because of King David's story. One of my colleagues acknowledged my strength before and he said that I am a fighter and I am strong and the reason is that I am trying to imitate King David. Another one is this phrase "Heaven and Earth will pass away but my words will not pass away". Another thing is the one I read from the books of the prophets which says, the golds will lost of its value in the time of trouble because people had stopped honoring each other. People are the ones who are using golds and the reason why gold has value is because of its great importance to people. The Bible says that when people die they will go to the New Jerusalem and it is written there that there will new president and new members of cabinets. Everybody will be called God's people and the Lord will be their God not unless a human is craving to become a God. Anyway that is what Satan is trying to be. Satan is fighting for the throne of glory and thinks that he deserved it. For this reason, Satan was cast out from the abode of God. He was thrown into the earth and was reigning with the people and of course he would devise many schemes to reign forever by deceiving many. In the old testament, the Lord said, I am not pleased with your sacrifice because those are unholy and stained. Maybe that is because even in the old testament it is the people's inclination to cling more to material things rather than the things in heaven. King's sacrifice is for the sake of compliance. I remembered the reason why King Saul was dethroned, it is because of his fear to people instead of honoring and fearing God. He doesn't wait for the Lord but let himself do the things that is not his thing but only for a Levite. After that fall, he don't step down from the throne but preserve his splendor because of his bruised reputation knowing that the glory of the Lord departed from him. Congratulations to me because I still have the word bank to lean on during my times of need for enhancing my writing skills. Till then...